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Friday, March 23, 2007


EXACTLY 2 YEARS HAS GONE BY,
I HAVE STOPPED BLOGGING IN THIS SITE.
PLS RELINK ME
THANKS!
:)



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11:10 PM




Saturday, March 10, 2007





I'm freakin' pissed!

Fark Fark Fark...!!

I feel like hunting them down.

Shitty man!

Received some bad news after husband went back to the old house to take a look at the postbox in case there were any letters still sent there.

Our apartment's door was splashed with red colour paint and the gate was locked with a bicycle lock.Freaking shitty tailongs!!

Why am I angry??

Because it is not me or my husband that borrowed money from them and neither are we the ones yg 'jamin' anyone. Fuck sia!!!

I'm so pissed with the old owner. This is too much. If for the last 3 years they have not changed the address on their ic nor come and collect their old letters we don't mind. But we got different types of people knocking on our doors asking for them. From LTA personnels with warrant arrest for the wife to MOM personnels who said that they didn't pay the maid's levy for the last 1 year and disappeared with the maid also, to the apek and mamak from kedai grocery nearby who said he owed them like 300 dollars each.

Then we had like relatives looking for the wife cos her mum was sakit tenat in Malacca. How could they change homes without informing their own siblings? I mean for goodness sake lah you still have a mum. Think of her if not the siblings.

We already suspected that the previous owner owed some illegal moneylenders money cos late last year, we received a knock on the door at 2.30 am. Bloody 2.30 am!! We were asleep already. They spunned a tale citing that they were looking for a man named 'Ali'(the old owner name) who sold mee rebus. We told them that we knew of no such person. Then around 15 minutes later they came back asking the same question. Like wtf sia..!!!

We should have made a police report back then when they didn't change the address on the ic. Why lah were we so patient and stupid to have not reported about this to the higher authority??

I mean the thing is... they live in luxury. I came across the daughter's blogspot yesterday after I googled about them. Why the daughter? Because she was a child actress with SURIA. Won an award for the first time she acted on tv. Apparently they have a car. The parents are both working. She lacks nothing. Financially they're so well off!! Why must they go and borrow money from these bloody illegal moneylenders and to use the old address lagi??

Ni lah melayu... shut the crap up lah about using 10k of your saving to produce your daughter's album when your daughter's voice is just like that of a croaking toad. Fucking piece of shit! They no longer appear on television. The last time the child actress appeared was in Cinta Bollywood series. I'm sure you know which child actress I mean. I will not write her name here cos it will be like defaming her for the mistakes her parents did.

They were such nice people though we sensed a bit of air of arrogance which we didn't mind cos their precious daughter is a so called 'Artis cilik paling popular'. All parents must be proud when their daughter is given a title such as that. Tapi biasalah kan... melayu. Kalau da senang sikit you can't deny the arrogance they have. As if they're some kinda big shots. Fuck lah!

We're on the verge of selling our home and this happen. Sapa nak beli klau da mcm ni? I feel like calling up the reporters and telling them this story. Full story. Biar malu. I know that's the last solution I will do if this thing prevails again. Biar satu dunia tahu yang they are not the people they claim to be.

And we feel like suing them. This is causing damage to our reputation. What about the loses we have to suffer, who's gonna pay for it? What do you think I should do?

FUCK!



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12:17 PM




Wednesday, March 07, 2007


Oppose monotony, support diversity,
oppose inhibitions, support wild passion,
oppose unanimity, support hierachy,
oppose spinach, support snails in their shells.
-Salvador Dali



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9:09 PM




Sunday, March 04, 2007


I got like really angry just now cos of what mum said to me. I know I shouldn't be but I can't help it. I wish I could tell her that. I wasn't really angry at her, I was really more frustrated and angry at myself rather than at her.

I shouldn't have punched the wardrobe doors and let her hear it. And i should have responded when she called out my name. I know I should but I didn't. It's cos the anger was too overwhelming. I know it's my fault for being too quick tempered especially around her. But I can't accept what she said. I feel like I had not done my job as a wife well that she had to say those things to me.

I find it hard to fall asleep these nights. I fall asleep only at 4 or 5 in the morning. Or worse still, I can't sleep the whole night. I'm having insomnia and it's driving me crazy. Why can't she understand it? She thinks that I did not sleep at night on purpose. I tried to sleep but I couldn't. I tried to read a book, have some hot drinks or even watched television but none of these things can make me go to sleep.

Well, actually they used to have some effects when I was staying at my home. I can fall asleep even while watching tv as early as 9 pm. But here... I can't. I dunno if it's the heat or the fact that I havent made myelf comfy here yet. I know I used to come from this very abode. But when I had my own home, we had the luxury of air-conditioned rooms, water heater, comfortable bed, we had 3 different bedrooms in which one is the home office,one the bedroom and the other one a dressing room. Whereas here, all our stuff are squeezed into one tiny room.

I'm thankful that she took us in. But I don't know how to make her understand the fact that I cannot sleep each night and end up sleeping till it's late morning or late afternoon. I want to wake up early. I miss getting up early, getting things done before it's noon. Having breakfast, chit chatting the morning away and cook. I miss cooking,even husband misses my cooking. But when I tried to cook, she makes comments that are you know, arrgghhh! And makes me lose the mood to cook.

I think I flare up too easily. I don't know how to control the anger. I wished I had better control over it so that I can just stay focus and cool. I cry each time my anger gets the best out of me. The frustrations and regrets is sometimes just too much for me to handle. I know I can be better but how??





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1:12 AM




Monday, February 26, 2007


Last Sunday, me and hubby took a bus ride which was 1 hour plus long to go here.



He asked me out cos he said I've been cooped up in the house for a looonngg time and because if tht I fell sick.

It's been a while since we last went out on any photography outing. Whilst other people go to beaches/spa to unwind and relax, we go on a hectic photography outing. I don't really mind accompanying him cos I love photography too. The only shortcoming is that we only have one camera now and both of us seem to have many ideas of shooting a photo. Sometimes the thing is not being captured appropriately by the other and that sucks.


We dropped off at the Supreme Court and walked to Funan cos I wanted to grabbed my Taco Bell's burrito which I absolutely love. Hubby had his Zinger. Both tapau-ed. Then from there we went to Peninsula Plaza to view the lenses, too bad the shops were closed. We both adored our dream camera, Leica Digilux 3, which was on display.Too bad they don't have M8 there.


After adoring and day dreaming(hehe), we made our way to Fort Canning. Snapped many pictures of the surroundings. The drizzling rain was the spoiler as we had to run for shelter. After that we experienced rain on and off so instead of making our way to the Keramat as we had planned, we made our way to the National Museum of Singapore.


After walking around the exhibitions, we made our way to Clarke Quay. By then it was already around 6 plus and the sun was setting. It was a beautiful sight. Clarke Quay had tourists all over the place and hubby wondered why out of all days, there seemed to be more tourists than any other day. You can hear different languages spoken all at one time. Snapped more pics in Clarke Quay before proceeding somewhere else. Went to Riverside Point where I told hubby I was thirsty and wanted to take a short rest before proceeding somewhere else.


Took a 10 minutes rest before we continue the journey walking along the Singapore River till we reached Outram.Wanted to make our way home but there weren't any bus stops or MRT stations nearby so we headed towards Clarke Quay Mrt Station. It was then...we heard loud sounds. My heart was pumping so fast. I knew it was the fireworks. And it was the fireworks!! We saw the fireworks but were too far away to snap any good pictures. We were walking as fast as we could but still missing it. Drats! We had missed out on the Chingay Procession cos hubby had a photoshoot. But missing out on the fireworks was like dang! It was so near yet so far. Nearly in our grasp if not for all the traffic lights! Heh.

Though there were no more fireworks,we still made our way to the tallest building in Singapore.Sat by the river and ate ice-cream.Hehehe..Took a longer rest before going to Boat Quay. Afterwhich, I was already tired and hubby was also tired. We walked across the bridge to go to Esplanade and there was the Singapore River Hong Bao and i met my 'good buddy' there. Who is she/he/it? I'll post the pictures later.

Snapped more pictures there. Then made our way back home...walked back to the Supreme Court, Funan, Peninsula before reaching City Hall Mrt Station. Got home at around 11-ish and everyone was already asleep. Hubby spend time uploading the pics, whereas I played some games on my laptop till 5 plus am. Slept and woke up onli at 11.

So...yeah...that's how I spent my weekend.



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11:12 AM